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Just as i thought i've been strong by not looking for you on facebook and not reading your blog, i stumbled upon your profile on facebook. I cant help but start to look at your photos again, suddenly, i heard something breaking, and i realised it was me, not anybody else.

I'm so foolish, i've told myself for the umpteenth time not to think about you, but i cant. And i start to wonder if you even remembered me. Then, i started to think about the past. The memories still stays there, without fading even a single bit. Wtf? My heart sank again. It was an unbearable thought of all these. I managed to hold back my tears since mommy was here. Pretending to be strong really sucks, although i seem to be happy most of the times, i'm not. Deep down inside, it's killing me. I really cant take all these shit anymore. Why cant i just delete you from my mind just like how i delete a message. It's hard, and once again, i'm on the verge of breaking down. It hurts, really. Oh god, please help me, there's nothing else i would wish for.