confused.

it's been a long time since i've actually started reading storybooks. shall go to the library to borrow some books after myes i guess. sigh, physics paper and emaths paper 2 was a major failure today. :< all the hard effort put in yesterday was wasted, sigh. well, i knew i was going to fail anyway, but...... ):

kay, emaths paper 1 tomorrow, shall work hard. and thursday is the last paper! CHEMISTRY. okay the official ending should be on friday cos of listening comprehension which is really really stupid.

well, life isn't going right nowadays, turning left i guess. realised that there's no one i can actually turn to when i need help, yeah. the only one i can trust is God and myself i guess.

MYEs.

well hello, it's like 3.3o am in the morning? and i'm still awake studying for the geography test tomorrow. well, doubt i'll pass, since i've been failing ever since this term started. but well.. what can i do.... disappointed with myself but i can only blame myself for not working harder enough. hopefully tomorrow's paper wouldn't be as hard as i expect, god please help me.

kay, off to study rivers now, goodabye.

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"Even though i've stopped liking you , every time someone mentions your name , my head turns right towards them . It's like every time i hear it , i think of all that we could have had , and all that could've happened that didn't .

I feel so fucking lonely right now ."

- haowei's blog .

让爱走动

panicking. 2 days, or to be exact 1 more day, to sa1. i'm really not prepared for sa1, yes. i need to buck up. need to work harder for geography, for social studies, for amaths, for everything. you can do it regina. you must. you can't let your parents down. you have to do it.

let nothing bring you down, including friendship problems. you have to do it, because you are regina.

regina

i guess, whenever exam periods are near, i'll be stressing and blogging. haha. yep. today's care talk was on stress, and wow, it fits me perfectly! i guess im really stressed. :x

i need to stop feeling bad. i need to stop thinking that things that happened beyond my control isn't my fault. but i cant help it whenever i see the scars, i'm traumatised, maybe. sometimes, i just wanna leave and run away. luckily nobody knows about this blog (except alvan and yuling) , so i can rant and do whatever i want here.

i'm so sick of life. life sucks. i want regina back.

need to stop taking people for granted.

i may leave the clique someday, who knows? it might be too unbearable for me to handle all these, so.. yeah. i'm just a coward that runs away from reality.

i'm tired. really.