I feel so tired.

I just feel like, sleeping and never wake up again. i'm so sick of life. i'm so sick of myself. i need a break, really. i dont even feel like doing anything. all i want to do now is to go home. go home and sleep, and try to make myself happy again. i'm so tired of this. i dont know who am i anymore. i dont even feel like myself. what is this? god please help me. i dont want to become like this forever. i need my faith back. i need my motivation back. i want regina back. i dont like this. oh god, please. i need you. i need to lean on you.

i need mommy more than anything else now. mommy, where are you. i just want to lie on you and cry all i want.