Unhappiness.

i have so many things going through my head: studies, family, jealousy, friendship. i'm going to suffer from a breakdown soon. i really don't want things to be like that. i'm so tired. i hate being such a person. i want the old regina back (i'm sure everyone does)

i don't know what's wrong with me. trying to prove that i can be another person? trying to prove that i don't care? hahaha, what the fuck. seriously.

i love all of you. i really really do. and the last thing i'd want to do is for this friendship to break apart. i don't want to drift apart from you guys. but i don't know who to trust anymore. i'm keeping everything inside and i'm going to die. i don't like to bottle up my feelings but when i tell you guys about my problems, it seem to me that none of you care. i hate that feeling of being rejected. it's killing me. really, it is.

please know that you guys are the best treasure that god has given me and i really really treasure each and everyone of you. i just don't want you guys to feel left out cus i often talk to a person too much, so i chose to kept quiet.

yes, this post is for the 4 of you: danielle isabelle yuling zhiqi. it's up to you for you to believe it or not. i'm just like that. i'm sorry for changing into the new me.

lastly, i love you guys. deep down in my heart.

i want to cry it all out. but there's no tears anymore.