i miss the old me

spent my day rotting at home. regretting not accompanying isabelle to work.
i'm fucking pissed. i don't know why am i so pissed. i don't understand myself. honestly, i feel so bitchy i feel so irritated by myself. i'm not me anymore. i don't even feel like i'm regina. who am i, seriously.

fuck my life. seriously. it's like people thinks that i have a oh-so-wonderful life but honestly nobody knows anything. the hell i'm going through, it's killing me. draining all my energy, my trust, my faith away. it's so tiring. i'm sorry i have to rant it out all here but i'm seriously sick of pretending. i'm not such a hypocrite in the past. and now i have to fucking tolerate somethings i don't like just cus i'm afraid of being left out. what is wrong with this shit.

i realised i've changed so much. i have a serious attitude problem right now. i admit this. i'm domineering i'm paranoid i'm useless.
i feel like screaming out loud. i need something to cheer me up.

can anybody tell me, who the hell am i?