if you ever knew.

Sometimes I start to think.. I start to wonder why the hell am I studying so hard for. It's really stupid. Sometimes I just want to fail everything. So tired of working hard for my own future. Yes it's for my own good I know. But it's like you don't even seem to appreciate everything I've done to gain a smile from you. Every time when I get good results you don't even seem to care. You just nod your head and give those oh-i-don't-really-care look. Then, I'll start to think why am I slogging my guts out, and studying like some freak.

I'm supposed to be happy today because I've improved for Sa1 and Common tests. But I can't seem to smile at all.

This is stupid why am I thinking of all these. I'm studying for myself. God please take away those negative thoughts away from my mind.