regina

i guess, whenever exam periods are near, i'll be stressing and blogging. haha. yep. today's care talk was on stress, and wow, it fits me perfectly! i guess im really stressed. :x

i need to stop feeling bad. i need to stop thinking that things that happened beyond my control isn't my fault. but i cant help it whenever i see the scars, i'm traumatised, maybe. sometimes, i just wanna leave and run away. luckily nobody knows about this blog (except alvan and yuling) , so i can rant and do whatever i want here.

i'm so sick of life. life sucks. i want regina back.

need to stop taking people for granted.

i may leave the clique someday, who knows? it might be too unbearable for me to handle all these, so.. yeah. i'm just a coward that runs away from reality.

i'm tired. really.

get over it.

(via raindropsonredroses)

i'm fucking tired, seriously. i need my old me back. SERIOUSLY. i'm feeling so dead. alive but barely breathing. feeling like a zombie walking around aimlessly. and i'm not even guilty.

i want to die okay. i'm so sick of all these. i need to get a life, seriously. sigh. i don't even know who am i. what happened to that regina. is she dead? or is she inside me. i don't know, really.

come back, regina, come back come back.

life's great nowadays

alright, finally got to touch the computer after many many weeks, and i think it's an accomplishment. or maybe i seldom touch it because of my blackberry ♥ hiakhiakhiak okay shan't digress. ummmm, cip was awesome yesterday, and yeap, got to interact more with the elderly there. shared my story with one of the elderly there, and about grandma staying alone at home. how i feel guilty not being able to spend time with her. and i felt bad because i'm afraid that i won't be able to fulfil my wish when i grow up - which is to buy a house for grandma to live with me, mummy and uncle. kor too (:

had an argument with my mom yesterday, kind of harsh, but i guess it was time to let it all out. since i'm already feeling shitty enough. and yeah the guilt hasn't gone away. felt so much better after talking to mom (after the quarrel). she promised me she'll have family time with me, yay~ because i really, really miss spending time alone with her and sharing all my secrets with her.

NAPFA today, i was really disappointed in shuttle run. inclined pull up was fine, sit and reach as shitty as ever, and got C for standing broad jump! big improvement for standing broad jump. situps were okay, didn't do that much compared to last year.

oh yes, physics test was alright, i guess. but i lost 7 marks because i didn't see the questions properly, silly me. but well i hope i'll be able to do well.

that's all i've got to say. shan't blog till MYE's over. goodluck everybody! (:

ohyes and to you alvan too if you're still reading my blog! goodluck alright! i'm sure you'll do well (:

procrastination.

yeah mye's coming. in two weeks time. i've not prepared, or should i say, i'm not prepared to take exams. i've been slacking for the whole time in semester 1 and i don't feel guilty at all. zomg, what's wrong with you reg.

you'd better wake up. 2 weeks. 7 subjects. provided that you understand them. quite impossible.

i just hope i can pass. i dont't want panel meeting.

so fucking tired.

- dead

yup hi. im undergoing so much stress. there's too many things im worried and sad/angry for. friendship, family, cca, studies, whatever that is. i'm not going to care anymore. one day im going to jump down and end everything. im done with this. it's too much for me to handle. im so sick and tired of crying. hate breaking down, especially in school. must learn how to control, really. i just cant take it further. im so tired, and it's beyond what i can handle this time.

fuck my life.

z.z.z

Hello. I am Emmeline her cousin. missing syf. now at emmeline's house. that silly girl's gonna have a heart to heart talk with me (:

april

still can't believe time actually passed so fast this year. it still feels like 2010 to me, just that my good friends aren't in the same class as me already. yup, busy with school work. don't know how to actually describe my life, but well. pathetic i guess. sa1's coming soon, and i've yet to understand amaths and physics. geography is another issue. i have no idea. life isn't very easy now. but then again, life isn't a bed of roses. it feels like i'm dead cus i can barely breathe. dislike all these that's happening. but be positive regina, cus 雨后总会有晴天 (: love you kok, and belle.

syf.

syf's over. finally. words can't describe how i actually feel right now. yeap, we got a silver again. such a pity because i felt that we can actually do much more better. but well, it's the process that mattered anyway. thank god for today. a large stone was taken away when i walked out of the concert hall. another stone was taken away when i realised we got silver. good thing is, we maintained our standard. bad thing, we didn't get gold. it's really a pity, but well, what can we do now. i'm happy for the band. jiayou mayflower concert band. you can do it.

dislike having mixed emotions cus i'll just vent it all on someone, someone like angie. sorry yeah but you pissed me off haha.

first. hope it'll last.

happy birthday

i love you. hope you enjoyed your day today with her. i'll step out so you'll be fine. i want you to be happy.


my eyes are so small now. i hope nobody notices them tml.