i hate changes

i hate everybody. why cant i be smarter?

if only i can be a little smarter and a little better.

就让我一个人去 痛到 受不了 想到 快疯掉

back from faye's party :)

i feel like crying.

happy christmas eve!

had a great day out with kimberley, yuling and christian! (:

caught narnia with them, awesome! :)

hope church will be fun tml :)

my letter 'w' in my laptop is screwed, i can't type it. ): i can only copy and paste argh wtf.

469.

“Get over him. He’s not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yeah you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can’t see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I’ve been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah you’re going to see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, because straight up; it’s gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows you’re watching. He knows it’s killing you; and that’s why he will do it. Don’t let him get to you because that, well that’s exactly what he wants. Don’t give him what he wants. He doesn’t even deserve it. So what if he doesn’t talk to you? Do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyway? Thing is, I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, and really. Do you want to hear that? No. So screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry, trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who’s not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you, when he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. So don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know you’ll never get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend he doesn’t see you online, and he does it out of spite just because he knows it’s killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways, he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he only does that because he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I’m not gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It will hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. It’s all going to hurt. Knowing you’re not the girl that’s making him smile. Knowing you’re not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing you’re not the face on his wallpaper. Knowing you won’t be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there’s not going to be anymore late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what? Today, tomorrow, next week, or maybe months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping it’s him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; he’s got too much pride. Even if he wanted to get back together with you, he wouldn’t tell you. You’re soon going to realize he doesn’t care about you anymore and he won’t be the first person you think of calling when you’re upset. He won’t be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yeah it’s going to hurt; its going to hurt a lot. But you know what you’re going to do? You’re going to hold your head up. You’re going to show him you’re better off without him and you don’t need him in your life. You’re going to prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life by letting you go and that you never really needed him anyway.”

so fucking true. i miss you.

symphonic episode 1

this is a super nice piece but i swear this is fucking hard. fuck those running notes.
band's fine. i'm happy i can played the syf pieces. hope mr tan wont fucking change the set piece to this one on top. if not i'll diezzzzzzzzzz. i swear.

c'mon do it regina you can do it. be it sax or alto clar.

CSI.

had a great day today!
@Pandaflyfly @LaDaBear @Zhiqizhiqi and Danielle!

bought jj's album today, happybird1996! :D

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绿叶在跟随，放开刺痛的滋味

i'm not the same anymore.
i feel like crying. why am i so fucking weak.
i think it's just time to let go.
fuck my life man. it always happen when i'm happy.

Sometimes I wonder if you're really human. You made me go through all these shit and then pretend that nothing ever happened.

(via YoursUniquely)

so fucking true.

dapigu yuling!

hello lovelove, (:
firstly, i would like to thank you for being my friend! for two years alright! (: i know last year we had alot of problems, not only me and you. :) i thank god for this friendship, all those crazy times we had together and all those heart-to-heart talks. thanks for everything, love!

we wont be in the same class next year, but we'll still stay in touch right! we'll definitely have banding! and we'll go recess with the others.

thanks for listening to my rants, and all my troubles, you're really a very good help. thanks for all those advices, and everything. thank you so much. you're a great friend.

so, see you tml. i love you (:

x

):

i'm such a coward, i have no guts.

i love yuling. :)

snsd

♥
Oh look at Sooyoung!!!!!! ofcus yoona and yuri look nice too! :D

let's summarize.
wed: band.
thurs: rot at home with cousin.
fri: band, christmas magic! damn awesome okay! except for the light bulb part cus i've heard it before.
sat: went to cell at nex! had some super boring game.
today: went to ahma's house cus she cooked and i actually left my phone at uncle's car. ):

holidays are boring, i cant wait for school to reopen soon.

p/s: seohyun's so hot!
pp/s: taeyeon and tiff's voice are super awesome
ppp/s: i love choi soo young! :D

- thought.

zzzz now i think i've drifted apart from everybody, 'cept dan.

my love.

im lazy to use the computer.
band is draining off all my energy.
and i suck, still.
what should i do? i dont know. im getting tired.

to yuling:
you paper but i still rock. cus reginaftw!!!!

to belle:
yawwwwzxc euus dunnch hafta feel bad tat euu dunnch noee hw 2 reply miie stuffs okiee.

to dan:
i hope we wont quarrel anymore. love ya.

to qi:
dont think you're reading this, but im really starting to miss everything that i did with you.
talking back to wz, walking around during lessons.... imy. and i hate it when we drift, like now.
we're like total strangers alr, fuck im serious.
hope we'll still be able to crap around in the future.

kay, im getting all emotional again.
i think i suck. HAHA. i think that's my fav phrase alr.

and im now sitting beside a stupid person, that is, my cousin.
and she just keeps saying 'sooyoung, eeyer/sooyoung sucks/sooyoung sucker'
fuck you :D

ohya, i shall refrain from using vulgarities (i've been saying this since i was p6)
because i realised jj dont like ppl who use too much vulgarities:)

im talking too much crap, who cares, its my blog and doubt anybody's reading anw.
bye.

stepsbyfaith.

i hope it'll last. i love the chat we had tonight. i hope we'll be like the past. but even if this wont happen tml, i'll be happy already. thank you god, it's a miracle.

i feel blessed by today's sermon. deeply touched by what pastor daniel khong had said. the burning bush. i felt you god. help me. guide me.
miracles WILL happen, and i believe that (:

and to yuling:
we'll all be together, alright? we wont drift apart. we'll still go recess together, have fun together, joke together, and the thing you and isabelle like to do - bully me. the five of us - dan belle qi you and me will still be together alright.
i love you guys. good luck for your future endeavours.

I MISS 2DILIGENT'10

oh seriously, who can have a class like that.

stumbled upon salita's profile just now, looked at her profile picture and all those comments that we commented on. i wonder if we'll still be close. we've never been good in anything - be it academically or physically, but if i had a choice, i'll still want to be in 2d. it's the best class ever.

TWITTER.

HELLO @PANDAFLYFLY @LaDaBear @Zhiqizhiqi and Danielle who doesn't have twitter! LEMME SHARE YOU A NEWS K! I JUST FOUND OUT I'M VERY CUTE! AND I'M GETTING CUTER AND CUTER! DON'T BE JEALOUS OF MY CUTENESS OKAY! IF NOT LATER 迷死你们! HIAKHIAK BYEBYE.

梁静茹

my new love~ (: i love jj more tho!!! :D

她說 - 林俊傑♥

作詞：孫燕姿
作曲：林俊傑


她靜悄悄地來過 她慢慢帶走沉默
只是最後的承諾 還是沒有帶走了寂寞
我們愛的沒有錯 只是美麗的獨守太折磨
她說無所謂 只要能在夜裡翻來覆去的時候有寄託
等不到天黑 煙火不會太完美
回憶燒成灰 還是等不到結尾
她曾說的無所謂 我怕一天一天被摧毀
等不到天黑 不敢凋謝的花蕾
綠葉在跟隨 放開刺痛的滋味
今後不再怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

她靜悄悄地來過 她慢慢帶走沉默
只是最後的承諾 還是沒有帶走了寂寞
我們愛的沒有錯 只是美麗的獨守太折磨
她說無所謂 只要能在夜裡翻來覆去的時候有寄託
等不到天黑 煙火不會太完美
回憶燒成灰 還是等不到結尾
她曾說的無所謂 我怕一天一天被摧毀
等不到天黑 不敢凋謝的花蕾
綠葉在跟隨 放開刺痛的滋味
今後不再怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

等不到天黑 煙火不會太完美
回憶燒成灰 還是等不到結尾
她曾說的無所謂 我怕一天一天被摧毀
等不到天黑 不敢凋謝的花蕾
綠葉在跟隨 放開刺痛的滋味
今後不再怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

等不到天黑 煙火不會太完美
回憶燒成灰 還是等不到結尾
她曾說的無所謂 我怕一天一天被摧毀
等不到天黑 不敢凋謝的花蕾
綠葉在跟隨 放開刺痛的滋味
今後不再怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒

不怕天明 我想只是害怕清醒
♥