-

sometimes, i just wish i can sleep and never wake up again. then i wouldn't have to face all these shit.

i'm a weirdo

i still have that overwhelming thought. i feel so stupid recently. okay, i guess i've been stupid since young. sometimes i just feel like letting everything go and runaway. i just need a change k it's still killing me inside. i have so many things to say, i need a listening ear. i dont want and dont find the need to tell my close friends cus they'll just say i'm stupid and it's time to let go. it's all the same phrases isn't it. some dont even care, lol srsly. i need to rant on someone. smart people will know what i'm talking about.

it still hurts. really. can't things just be the same as before.
smlj la zzz fml

because you're regina, you must endure all these shit.
because you're regina, you must stay strong.
because you're regina, you must do well.
because you're regina, you must try your best.
because you're regina, you must learn how to be happy

but sometimes i'm just so jealous of her..... the feeling is overwhelming, it's taking over me.
i'm not trying to bitch about my life k, cus i know there are many other worst ones. but nobody knows any hell i'm going through. it's just so tired....... i'm so tired, i dont like myself. sometimes, i even dislike god for giving me this life.
why am i always taking ppl closest to me for granted? i really dont know who i am now.

):

get well soon jj.

JJ GOT INFECTED BY H1N1!!! ARGHHHHHHHHH, go away disease!!! ):
get well soon jj! continue to rock on with more of your super awesome songs! i love you! goodluck for all your concerts and get well sooooooooooon! <3

Sometimes i become too overwhelmed with my life, i just want everything to pause for one moment.

i'm just me.

csf

hello danielle idk if you're reading this not but i want to tell you that you mean alot alot alot to me too okkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk ♥!

i love yesterday to the max heeheeheeheehee. i love ranting on isabelle!! :D

i know i can do it. and i must do it. cus if i don't, i'll end up hurting myself and my friends even further. gambateh! hehehehe.

i'm not happy anymore.
dear jesus, please let me know who am i. i don't want to live a life like this. it's killing me. i appear nonchalant but it's really tearing me. i'm crying for every minor thing. i'm so tired of living. please give me a life that's worth living for.

i think.

i guess. i shall be like her now. i think it would be better for me. i shan't care about anything anymore. even if it's secretly tearing me inside.

i miss the old me

spent my day rotting at home. regretting not accompanying isabelle to work.
i'm fucking pissed. i don't know why am i so pissed. i don't understand myself. honestly, i feel so bitchy i feel so irritated by myself. i'm not me anymore. i don't even feel like i'm regina. who am i, seriously.

fuck my life. seriously. it's like people thinks that i have a oh-so-wonderful life but honestly nobody knows anything. the hell i'm going through, it's killing me. draining all my energy, my trust, my faith away. it's so tiring. i'm sorry i have to rant it out all here but i'm seriously sick of pretending. i'm not such a hypocrite in the past. and now i have to fucking tolerate somethings i don't like just cus i'm afraid of being left out. what is wrong with this shit.

i realised i've changed so much. i have a serious attitude problem right now. i admit this. i'm domineering i'm paranoid i'm useless.
i feel like screaming out loud. i need something to cheer me up.

can anybody tell me, who the hell am i?

她說

we're all in this together.

hello chia yu si. i love making fun of your name! hehehehe okay la. i love you. of cus i will remember all your silly actions. wtffffffffffffff everytime come my seat and i thought you'll want to 'talk to me or something then i move away then end up you said 'come for fun de bye' AND EVERYTIME YOU CALL WILL SAY 'call for fun de' tsk gnd la you cheat my feelings. hehehe. i love it when we talk about jj! or maybe is i talk about jj! i love everything we've done together la. serious talks, lame talks, retarded convos or whatever, it's all very fun k!! hehe i love it most when we twit! it's like iie lurvee euus to tuhh max leiiii! HEHEHEHEHEHE k i'm siao alr.

although there's sometimes when i really really hate you, cus of your random moodswings. but then it wont be for long la, cus afterall you'll tell me everything. i love sharing secrets with you cus i know you'll keep it safe. i know i often talk abaout 49 to you and you'll be super pissed and you wont know what to reply me everytime after i say about him. sorry ah dear HAHAHA i dunno why i liked him so much either. but well i guess it's time to let go and it faded alrrrrrrrr. hehehe yes it's all thanks to amandapoh's '200 comments incident' that made us become good friend. thank her manz! i love it when you share ur books with me (LOL) melody carlson's. especially at northpoint when you did the 'beyond reach, mixed bags, stealing bradford' and many many more. AND THE TIMES WHEN YOU CALLED ME MONKEY AND DIAPER. (why call me that ah forget liao) OHYA REMEMBER YOU DAN AND QI CALLED ME RECHEENA?! HAHAHA ^^ okok. i'm digressing~

i want us to be still super close together! i'll always remember you okay! especially during recess and the canteen madness album!!! :D and laksa! <3 hehehehhehehehe. let's go recess tgth next year. i love you belle. sorry if i sound like i'm a lesbian HAHA. :p kkk bye!


MOST IMPORTANTLY THANKS FOR LETTING ME LOVE KPOP AND THANKS FOR BEING IN MY LIFE. ILY!

dearest isabelle.

dear isabelle, there's so many things i wanna tell you. although we'll be in a different class next year, i hope we will not drift apart (although the possibility is high). we must always keep in contact alright? do well in 3D, i know you can do it cus you're a smart girl. remember your promise, we must meet up at least once every week okay? hopefully our ccas wont clash. i hope you won't forget me, cus i know i'll never forget you; one of my closest friend in mayflower. (ps i'm talking like as if we wont see each other anymore) do well in bowling, and no matter what you must enter B divisions k? i'll practise with you whenever i'm free alright? you must promise me not to be lazy anymore when you reach sec3 cus we'll be mugging for O's together already. we must meet up to study okay! i will do my best to not let us drift. i'll always miss your laughter, your random moodswings, your bullyings, your silly actions; everything. promise me to study hard, okay? i really thank god having a friend like you. we must must must must keep in touch, and you can tell me anything. i'm 8 numbers away from your phone. i love you. god bless. take care.

xoxo, regina.

-

pray hard pray hard that we wont ever drift apart.

i really hate to say this. i really really do. despite taking the subs i want since the starting of the year: pure phy pure chem amaths. but it's getting over me. i really can't imagine life without my closest friend ever, isabelle. although danielle's in the same class as me, i cannot imagine only singing and playing with only her in class. i'll miss isabelle's stupid laughter and her bullyings and every single thing. i really reallly really don't want to split class. i hate streaming. i hate all these shit. i really don't want all these to happen. i don't want another case of seeing your used-to-be-closest-friend walking down the canteen and end up saying only hi or don't even address each other. that feeling sucks to the max.

zhiqi in 3E, isabelle in 3D, me and dan in 3J, what's with this, seriously. why must we split class why why why. i miss 2D.

dj got us falling in love again.

i have alot of things to say about the chalet. but i don't know where to start from. all i can say that it's awesome, although very little people went. it's been a while since i ever felt so happy. and i feel so relaxed telling some of them (yeongsoon yulong zhaoyi isabelle) about my secrets. hehehehe, i know they wont tell out anyone of them hor! :D

i'm super scared for tomorrow. i don't want to know what class i'll be going to next year.

jesus take the wheel.

6/11

HAHAHA TODAY IS TEENS XCITE LAUNCH. IT'S WAS SUPER AWESOME I LOVE IT TO THE MAX. AND THE PRIZE FOR TODAY IS A 32GB IPAD, A CAMERA AND A SPEAKERS. GRATS TO THE 3 PPL THAT GOT IT. IT'S AWESOME. I LOVE YOUTHNET. I LOVE CHURCHMATES.

bye! will mia nowadays since there's nothing much to do when i'm using the comp.
might get a blackberry bold! :p

Filthyrich.

hello, i'm going to blog about this super chio friend of mine, ChanKwanTyng. hehhhhh. ^^ my first impression of her was that she's super super super scary and fierce. then after getting to know her, she's actually very very friendly and nice. hehe. she's one of my closer friends in class and she's really really very nice! hehe, i love deesiao-ing her with her helmet head :p hope we can be in the same class next year! :D stay pretty and hope we can be closer hor stupid guanting! :p hehehe, and lastly, last long with your bingxu!!! :D

xoxo, regina.

快乐地活下去.

aww, i miss my family.

i'm going to be a happy girl from today onwards. :)
caught 'Legends of the Guardians' with danielle today~

i miss 2D, cant wait for the chalet. i really miss 2D. i miss every single one of them. argh, how i wish all those close friends of mine can go to the same class as me next year.

and my day ended with a smile. goodnight world.

3/11

happy birthday 49. i wish you all the best.

will post again later.